[Every sky was your own kind of blue]

Today was freaking busy! I studied and had lunch with the girls. I sweat my butt off on the way home, showered and chilled for an hour or so and then dad and I went grocery shopping. 2 hours and damn near $300 later, we got home, tired and sore. Grocery shopping for 2 weeks is hard work! 

I need to study tonight but I am not motivated. 

Tomorrow I am taking my car to get checked out and going with mom to get some stuff at Sam's. Then I have to find a daycare to observe, I have to turn in the form Tuesday and have procrastinated all month. I hope I don't have any problems... I need to write up my child interviews and the daycare observation this week cuz I have to start on a major project next week and have an Adoption seminar for school Friday. I need to go through a bunch of clothes to either trash, donate or keep sometime this week too.

I've also been planning my birthday, I think we're going to go to sing karaoke at this place in Houston if they have room. I emailed the place about reservations and am waiting to hear back. I am a little nervous about this but I gotta face my fear sometime!

[Say goodbye to my heart tonight]

I need to be asleep right now but I just can't quite make it to bed. There are so many other things I could be doing (like not studying).

Yesterday, my car a/c stopped working. I just had the compressor changed out for a different problem a month or two ago, I'm hoping that there is a warranty or something that will cover this. I'm assuming that they put in new freon... I don't know what else it could be. I was not a happy camper yesterday after I spent time putting on makeup and doing my hair only to have it ruined by sweat and wind.

Last night was my classmate N's birthday, we went out to a pub with a handful of other friends from school and had an awesome time. I got home late and slept in til 11.

Today, I studied for a bit then helped dad shave Kody and Pepper. Mandy came over and her and mom made pecan pancakes with strawberries, yum! I meant to study this evening but I was tired. I ended up watching Vampire Diaries, Castle and Bones with the fam. I'm SO happy my shows are back on!

I finally got to talk to C this morning, yay! He had a busy day yesterday and is still looking for a flat so he hasn't been around much :( I hope he gets settled soon. It's only been like 10 days since he left but it feels like it's been so much longer! I think the longest we have spent apart is 2 weeks; when he was at chess camp last summer. It sucked then and it sucks now. I'm trying not to be all emo about it but sometimes I can't help it. I am glad that I have awesome friends (and fam) who are there for me. <3

Here I go again...

I finished up my last clinical at the children's hospital yesterday. I was in the clinic this time and gave vaccinations and watched the nurse do hearing and vision screenings. Most of the kids were in for Well Child Checks. I was running around a lot but it was fun and I learned a lot.

My sister had her surgery yesterday. They removed her stent and tried extracorporeal shock wave lithotripsy (ESWL), she's sore but glad to have the stent out.

I went to the doctor Tuesday and, as I suspected, I gained all the weight I had lost last year back (and more!). I'm not happy about that. The doc suspects diabetes and wants me to check my blood sugar twice a week. She also put me back on metformin but only 500 mg (I was on 1500 mg last year). I want her to increase it, but I guess I'll wait til I see her again before I start questioning her.

I joined this daily challenge thingy through facebook and am really liking it. I am also finding out how out of shape I am. I used to be really flexible, now I'm not. I want to build that back up. I searched online for exercises but I can't do half of them so I got the bright idea to search for plus size exercises and had much better luck! I found a lot of sites that recommend walking and yoga and not just regular yoga-fat girl yoga!

Yoga for Round Bodies
Heavy Weight Yoga
Mega Yoga
Plus-sized Pilates and more!

I'm gonna see if the library has any of these and if not I'll probably see if we can order one from amazon. I am also going to start walking again. I need to quit making excuses and just do it.

I really miss C. Having an "online" relationship sucks after having a real life one for a year. I feel like I don't have a boyfriend sometimes, it's like we've lost that connection. We don't get to talk to each other like we used to and even though we have voice chat, its not the same. I haven't spoken to him in over 24 hours so I'm a little frustrated. Hopefully, we'll be able to talk soon.

365 fail

C left Monday, I'm sad but ok. I occasionally burst into tears when people talk about it or I see something that reminds me of him. I guess that's normal? We're talking through email and instant messenger now until he gets an apartment or "flat" as they call it over there and can get a phone or internet. We are trying Skype or Oovoo tomorrow. Oovoo has 3 way video chat that will be fun for talking to his niece. I'm excited!

I went to a private Episcopal school for my school nurse clinical today. It was pretty cool. As much as I don't like organized religion, I do kinda like the religious schools. The kids seems happier and more well behaved-respectful even. The programs seem better, the teachers more involved... IDK, I'm sure that not all schools are like the few that I have visited but I like what I have seen.

Anywho, I've just been busy with school and clinical and family and C leaving.

I found out that my finger wasn't infected, I actually had an allergic reaction to neosporin (probably the neomycin) that caused it to blister and swell. The doc gave me a corticosteroid and told me to use aquaphor instead of (neosporin).

[no sound of fury, no shot of pain]

I could not sleep last night, I slept for about an hour and was up. I took a Tylenol PM, hoping it would help but all it did was make me thirsty. I played WWF and tossed and turned and finally got up. My dad was up and started telling me about his very detailed dream. Mom got up about an hour later and I went back to bed. I tossed and turned for an hour or so longer and finally fell asleep around 5. I woke up at 7 and 9 to get a drink and mom woke me up at 11 reminding me that I was supposed to take Pep to the vet this morning. I got up and ate a bowl of cereal. As I walked back to the kitchen to put my bowl in the sink, I noticed it was pouring outside. I told mom I couldn't take Pep to the vet until it stopped raining and started watching TV with her. I kept nodding off so she told me to go back to bed, lol. So Pep and I went back to bed for an hour or so and when I got up the rain had stopped. I got dressed and took Pep to the vet.

He has an ear infection and a sinus infection. He got meds and some cream to put on his nose to help keep it from getting crusty and gross. After the vet I went to get my car aligned and headed home. The other dogs were happy to see Pep except Ginger, she always has to "yell" at him for leaving.

Mom was asleep and dad was checking out my car-the work the mechanic did and installing new wiper blades, so I cooked dinner. Nothing fancy; smoked sausage and baked beans with blueberries and whipped cream for dessert.

Tomorrow, I am going to get my oil changed, radiator flushed and an inspection. Wednesday I am taking dad's truck to get an oil change. I have to start on my list of chores soon and get started studying for my test on the 22nd. It seems like it's so far away but it's gonna creep up on me real quick!

I might go to the doctor tomorrow, my finger is still red and angry and I have some dry itchy/sting-y patches under and around the corners of my eyes. I thought it was irritation from my eyes constantly watering (damn allergies) but today the whole area under my eyes was swollen, puffy and hurt like I had a sunburn. IDK if I am allergic to something new or if I my regular allergies are getting worse or what but it's not normal or comfortable :(

ETA-I had a thought after I posted this that my facial swelling might be from MSG (from the crappy chinese place) so I looked it up (here) and that could totally be the reason AND could have been the reason why I couldn't sleep and why I was so thirsyt! Frakking MSG!

[I need another story]

I got to class prepared to fail my math test because I was so confused about rounding and which place to round to and why some kg cancelled and others didn't... Mrs. D came in and asked us what the problem was, that this is the same thing that we learned last semester, why are we freaking out and went over the rules. Once she clarified I felt 95% better about it and was able to make the grade. THANK THE LORD!

After the test, we had to listen to lecture forever and a day. She let us out 30 minutes early (woohoo) and I came home, ate and went to bed for an hour.

I'm packing up some stuff and heading over to C's for the long weekend now. I think we're going to see Beastly or Red Riding Hood tomorrow. Yay!

I need to start writing horror movies...

Today was another frustratingly boring day. We spent 2 hours going over the frakking syllabus, we got yelled at about the math and then had a mind numbingly long lecture about infant mortality. The info was actually interesting but was not presented in an interesting way.

Things got better once I got home, mom had made spaghetti and meatballs for lunch. Yum! I watched Being Human and took a 2 hour nap. I procrastinated on studying all evening but am trying to do it now. Maybe I'll wake up early and study some more.

I saw this hilarious trailer on YT about a killer tire called Rubber... watch it!


Not much else to say, hope you all have a great night!

[Don't care if critics ever jump in line]

We had a long and rambling lecture over infant nutrition and immunizations this morning. The prof. kept getting off track because people kept asking irrelevant questions. Grr!

I had a ham and cheese panini for lunch and dinner cuz I was too lazy to cook what I really wanted (spaghetti or thai curry). I took a nap and watched TV. Glee, Raising Hope and Traffic were all good!! I caught up on the rest of the Kardashians also. I have a few horror movies DVR-ed to watch with my dad over spring break =)

I'm a little upset that I haven't seen C since Saturday morning and he made this huge deal about spending all this time with me since he is leaving at the end of the month. WTF dude. My mom thinks he's trying to push me away because it will make it easier to leave or something... IDK but it's annoying. Thank God for TV and Nutella.

I'm gonna have to change the way I deal with things when he leaves cuz eating and TV are going to make my ass get HUGE and I'm fat enough as it is. Maybe I can start exercising or something... I need an exercise buddy. Or some willpower. OR maybe just a pretty place to walk, when I walked all over Hermann Park it wasn't so bad cuz I was distracted by the ducks, trees and such.

[It's like were chasing all those stars]

I made a B on my final and a B in the class, yay!!

We had 2 hours to kill after the test so Ve and I went to the mall and window shopped. St showed up and bought us Dippin' Dots. I have only had DD once, in San Antonio at the wax museum and they were stale. These were yummy! I loved taking a bite and exhaling so my breath looked like smoke, lol. I'm easily entertained.

After the mall we went back to class to work on dosage calculations for children. We were split into groups and half my group was speeding ahead like it's nothing and the other half was getting frustrated. I need to practice tomorrow to get it down.

I watched SPN and Being Human when I got home and then dad and I went to get mom some food-she wanted pork chops- for her birthday. We also picked up a tres leches cake. I'd never had tres leches before, it was OK. It might have been better if it hadn't been frozen in the middle!! LMAO! Mom ate it anyway and loved it. She laughed when dad and I sang her "Happy Birthday", she said she wished she could record us, I'm glad she didn't cuz we sound horrible.

After dinner we watched Shameless and the 'rents went to bed. I stayed up and watched a few episodes of Kourtney and Kim take NY.

I'm doing tactical puzzles on chesstempo now and losing. I'm probably going to watch New Moon... or maybe Eclipse and go to bed.

Peace!

[Who's driving shiny big black cars]

Studied most of the day. Came home and the power went out so we ordered pizza and I studied at BK cuz they have free wifi. It would have been great had the music not been so loud. Might be my new study place if I can get some earplugs. :)

OB final is tomorrow I am nervous yet not... I don't know if this is confidence in my abilities or if I just don't care anymore. Maybe I'm just tired.

bye bye babies

We had our last OB rotation today. I was sad to see it end but excited for the future and that we are that much closer to the end. We left a little early and took our instructor out to lunch. We had a nice time chatting about our experiences in the hospital and working with a new group.

I took a nap when I got home, breakfast for dinner and watched some TV.

Now I need to finish up some homework and start reviewing for the final.

Simulation!

We had our lab simulation today, I was "family member" and my manikin "sister" was experiencing postpartum hemorrhage. My team members did a really great job, I was impressed.

After simulation, I headed home, ate lunch and watched The Sorcerer's Apprentice,  I really liked it!

After the movie, I took a 3 hour nap and haven't been able to sleep tonight :( I guess I'll stay up face-booking and playing Angry Birds.

Rodeo!

I took my proctored test today. It's a NCLEX simulation type test. I made a level 2 which means I should meet or exceed the requirements and most likely pass the NCLEX. That's good news!

I went to the rodeo tonight with Ve, St and some classmates. We had a really good time. We saw Clay Walker-I didn't even know who he was but I did recognize 2 songs. One song was from in a movie or TV show and the other was V's ringtone forever.

I took like 400 pics and they all look the same, LMAO!!

I met up with C afterwards and we hung out for an hour or so before heading home.

"Nobody follow us or I kill myself and then her! "

Didn't do much today- a little homework and watched Knight and Day with the folks. It was crazy but good.

I have a busy week ahead of me.

Cheers!

Amazing!

Today was another amazing clinical day. I was it the nursery and got to see 3 deliveries. Two were "natural" and 1 was C section. One of the babies peed on his mom as soon as they placed him on her abdomen, it was so funny! She was laughing through the pain.

I helped with the newborn assessments, vital signs and meds. I tested baby blood sugars, gave the eye meds and a hepatitis vaccine. I also bathed, fed, changed and held newborns and got to feed a lil 3# preemie. She was adorable! They all were!

I got to inspect a placenta, watch a circumcision and a see a tubal ligation! AWESOME!!

We talked to some of the nurses and got some advice and some more insight into what a L&D/Nursery/NICU/Postpartum nurse does and the stress and responsibilities you have. We also talked about cross training and making sure you get that year or two of Med Surg in to help you be a better nurse and prepare you for almost anything.

To top it all off, I got a 96 on my nursing process paper!

Got home, slept, ate and watched The Vampire Diaries. I'm pissed that I can't watch another new epi til  APRIL! I can appreciate that they are trying to lure in new watchers but seriously, leave my show alone CW!!

Can't wait for the Hillywood Parody of TVD to come out!!